Yes dears... these days I am dwelling in modernized soddom and gomorrah. I like to thing of it as making up for lost time really. How did it all start? Well a couple of months ago, when I was still working at the Tibetan thing, there were days where I was doing 15 hours a day. Working hours were actually a silent retreat for me - Yes someone was actually trying to teach me how to shut my bloody gob and to think before opening it... one such way was to totally restrict my speech and be aware when I do open it...
For me, it was a great trial and whilst I knew it was good for me, I soon began rebelling against the whole lot of it and yearned for conversation. Not any conversation.... the notti stuff... why, well cos it was going to the other extreme of what I was doing during the day... trying to acvhieve a balance, so to say. So i entered one of these friendshipxxx sites and soon began chatting with others whenever I came home. Yes I would be absolutely exhausted physically by the time I arrived home, but the need for conversation took over. The need to get REAL and well with my timing the only way I could do it was really thru the net.
As usual, anything with the net becomes addictive.. so after I ran away from the job, i started spending more and more time on it. I even began blogging. Not here tho, that xxx site and NO I am NOT giving you the URL nor my handle.
Surprisingly, my blog actually became quite popular, in this part of the world anyway and thru it I met some incredibly wonderful people and well some not so wonderful... but yes all men... and yes i did meet quite a few... ... But the incredible thing was that I actually also made allot of new friends. So what I am probably never going to meet them and they could in fact be some mass murderer paedophilic arsehole, well, I guess that's why they will remain net friends with whom I have somehow connected with at this stage in my life.
Anyway, this will all be stopping soon... or rather slowing down dramatically, cos Yes I finally got a job and will be starting in about a weeks time. So basically I now have a week to play as much as I like and sort out all my bullshit and then back to sobriety...
caio for now darlings... Muak!
